I’m so touched..

So remember my post many moons ago about being unemployed?? Well, now I’m working 2 jobs! Yes 2 jobs! Bit tiring, but money is money so I can’t complain! 

So why am I so touched?? Well one of the jobs I work in is as a child care assistant in a Montessori school, and I’ve only been there 2 weeks. I do the after schools part where kids after school comes to the Montessori and we do after schools activities with them. There’s a girl there that I’ve played “tickle monster” with in the school garden along with her friends.. basically you chase the kids and when you catch them, you tickle them! Tiring for the chaser! haha. 

But today was her last day here and she was giving presents out to the teachers who has minded her while she was there and I got a present! I was so touched because I wasn’t expecting anything! She hand picked perfume for everyone! I was so happy I cried a little… It meant so much to me because even though I’ve only been there a short while, I feel accepted and loved by the kids there. 



You are beautiful.

I’ve decided to share a little something out there for any girls out there who are so determined about trying to get the “perfect body”, in other words, be supermodel thin.

So I have come to grips with myself and my weight. I have always thought, oh I’d love to be like so and so and be that weight and be this skinny like such and such. Well, ya know what, f*** that (excuse my language) because I’ve come to terms with how I look and weigh and I have finally accepted that, this is my bone structure, how my body is and no matter how I try, I will not look like the person I’m “aiming” to become.

You are your own person and YOU are the ultimate decider of “a perfect body”. Everyone has someone they would love to look like or be as skinny as, and we call these “models” perfect in our eyes. But if you can just see how beautiful you are inside and out, you can see that you too are perfect in your own ways. You don’t have to be 5ft10 and weight 50kg to be perfect. A bit of meat on the bones is always good (at least you won’t have to worry about freezing in the winter!)

The media is such a terrible things for you kids and especially teenagers! I have friends who tell me that their daughters are very weight conscious because the girls in magazines and on tv are so thin it makes them feel “fat” where in fact they are just normal weight! I used to compare myself to all these stick thin models thinking “one day I will look like them!” and I got so upset and unhappy because it make me not like how I looked and made me think I’ll never be happy if I don’t reach my goal because obviously that body type is the one that everyone loves! I was so focused on trying to lose weight and drowning myself in sorrows whenever I failed at a diet. I was miserable. I’d look at these so-called “thinspo” images of skinny women and girls with the so-called “thigh-gaps” for motivation, but in fact, these were the source of my unhappiness! I would be motivated, but because of my body type, it is pretty much impossible for me to be as skinny as some other girls, which made me increasingly unhappy and stressed.

Yes, I’ve had difficulties accepting my body and weight and for who I am, but I’ve finally done it and I’m so glad now because I am a much happier person. I’m not telling you to binge and eat all the junk food you can, but as long as you eat a healthy diet and do the recommended exercises (at least 30 mins, even brisk walking!) then you will be fine! Some peoples bone structures and genes just don’t do skinny (as in stick thin!) and you’ve just got to accept yourself for who you are.

I think everyone is beautiful in their own special ways! After all, no one person is the same. Everyone is different! If you learn to accept yourself for who you are you will find that you will be a much happier person and life will be more enjoyable rather than forcing your body through diets on end which, let’s be honest, never works or is not long lasting.

Life is too short to stress about getting the “perfect body”  which is created by the media. Love yourself like how you’d like someone to love you. Things you don’t like about yourself, someone out there will love, it might not be right now, but that someone is out there for you! You just have to see the good side of things, be happy and things will just flow into place!

Don’t worry…. Be happy!

Smile, you are beautiful. 🙂


And people who stress less look younger too! 😀

A quickie from todays Geisha photoshoot :)

A quickie from todays Geisha photoshoot :)

It was an absolute pleasure to work with some extremely talented people today! Had a blast in the Japanese Gardens in Kildare.
Photographer: Agnes Es
Make-up artist: Ana Aparici- Wickham
Costume designer: Natalie Da Costa
Hair designer: Wai-Har Healy
Model: Nikki Wong


Lipstick Obsession

Lipstick Obsession

So it turns out I’ve more lipstick than I thought I had! My new obsession! Perhaps my first and last! hahaha. Ah, ya got to love the lipsticks! That’s not even half of what I own! We’ll see we’ll see! Soon my room will be a lipstick stock room! 🙂


When you wake up to a massive spot on your face…

Isn’t it really annoying when you wake up and there’s a massive red spot on your face that wasn’t there the night before? And it’s always the days when you need to look your best that this happens. Do you even wonder, what would have happened if you didn’t go to sleep that night? Would you see the spot gradually growing on your face? Or would it just be a second of a *bop* and voila, you got your spot!

I wonder.. I really do! Maybe if I had stayed up all night the spot wouldn’t have formed on my face! Who knows.

This is just because I have a massive red spot on my nose which has been there for over a week now and does not seem to be departing me any time soon. I haven’t done anything to it other that make sure it’s clean.. SO clean that maybe it will be ready to leave me soon! One can only hope!

On a side note, I’m doing a hair show tomorrow and Andrew Barton is the celebrity stylist coming over to do our hair. If I get picked I’ll be getting my hair (currently black and length is at my stomach) cut short past my shoulders and dyed!

Excited but nervous at the same time! 

Doing a lecture online…

Doing a lecture online...

The lecturer says “AND..” and “omm…” and “emm”.. after every few words and then she would take a 2 second pause in between…Unbearable… I can’t focus!!

That’s a portrait of me listening to this lecturer….



The truth can be painful sometimes…

This is definitely me at the moment.

*tear tear*


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